serves her right

there is this girl in my class who is just so lazy, always avoiding taking responsibilities, and even when she gets it, it's not done diligently. I hate that kind of person...

alright...I know, that's her life...let her be...but when it affects my life, I think i have the right to critisize her...
It's like, during presentation, she wasn't well prepared,always giving excuses like " I've checked in ALL the books but couldn't find it ",and the funny part was, the rest of the tutorial members found it in the book/reference given by the lecturer...hello!!which book exactly you've been SKIMMING thru to look for it......(oo, yea, throughout this rant, you have to check the keywords that are capitalised)..
other eg : her initial sentence " factor affecting it are A and B"
other tutee : What are A and B?
she : A and B are the things that influnce it...... (awkward moment)
again, everybody knows "factors affecting" means "things influencing"....what are you trying to save actually? your thick face?? don'tbother....you are well known as one tongue twister!!

But today, the day finally comes, when she fnnaly got THE LECTURER that she should have gotten in the begginning, but she always lucky, I assume...

and there she was....flustered, faltered, speechless.....name it...I just love to see the reaction....in fact, when she was sputtering whatever cock it was, I was actually sitting in my seat, enjoyingthe show with smug look on my face...what's lacking was only popcorn!!!
believe me, I almost gave standing ovation and hugged the lecturer for finaly get it even for me on whatever unsettled business, uneasy feelings that Ive beared so long...(relieve sigh~)

rasa nak perantuk kepala sesapa kt dinding

laptop rosak, so xde update...

sekian~

*bengang gile sampe malas nak tulis lam English*

I'm lazy and lonely..=(

I just finished 5 or 6 papers and next week i have SOCA(find out yourself what's that)and other 3 papers...

i thought i deserved a break...So thursday i dint study and went to Jatos to blow off some steam!!
Friday morning i woke up with a little determination to study but I went to comic rent store and I was hooked there for 3 hours reading "Prince of Tennis" and "Dragon Drive"...(yes., im a comic freak..only anime and chinese kungfu series....no america superheroes crap comics)

In the afternoon , i went to Hema's room, watched "the ugly betty" before going to jatos again to eat..and had a LITTLE chit chat...huhu..mm...for 2 hours..little eh??..then went to send HEma back, and stuck at Ira's room for another hour..the topic is still revolving around "life and future partner"
yes..I'm single...actually i think being single is more problem-free..no??i'd post another entry about relationship ok!!dont worry..ill bore you to death with it..

when i went back to my empty room, i felt so lonely...I sometimes have "lonely-disorder" especially around exam time...I tried to read but my mind was on something else...it's like my eyes are focussed on the paper, and im reading it but when ive finished to the last sentence, I didnt know what i was reading...it's like my brain couldnt imbibe anything ..So I started from the beginning and so it perpetuated again and again..and it took me one good hour to finally realise that it was futile to continue doing so...

So here I am, in the cyber cafe since the internet connection in my house was on off,on off,on off. and with that, my rp125,000(monthly internet fee) flying away in vain. this didnt happen only today but its been 2 weeks..ok fine..rp62,500!

I'm so pissed off..I dnt know the specific,particular reason y im pissed off but i just am...everything seemed awry lately...nothing was right..=((((((((((((((

anybody pliss cheer me up, help me, talk some sense into me, help me putting myself together...sigh~

geram!!!

my English is not getting better but deteriorating...I don't blame anybody but myself because lack use of it....
but I'm not entirely at fault here, I don't really have english-speaking close friends...only regular ones who i seldom talk to..
and now my spoken english is almost like, god forbid, kampung people..waaaa!!!!!

It's been 2months i rested at home without going out much with friends...
I noticed that I stutter in speaking during tutorial class..

speaking of tutorial, I had an argument with one of my classmates 'bout the learning issue that i'm accounted to do..It is so obvious that it is unnecessary but still she persisted me on doing it...and she said that the lecturer told so but i paid full heed during the tutorial(believe it or not), and i never heard a word suggesting to include that topic in the learning issue....plus, what I understand was that topic is not important and irrelevant to the case..but she just played ignorant, selfish, and officious..other groups didn't do it..why must we??

ngok tol!!ni nak marah niy

My Obsession of HEIGHT

since i was a little boy, my grandma always advised me to eat a lot to be tall...always compared me with my other same age cousins, always yanks my legs before i went to sleep, and asked me to hang at the trees to let the gravity pull me longer....all these were important coz at that time, we had no money to buy milk for morning drinks...

but when i grew teenager and when the development period was at the most crucial,I forgot all those things and did nothing to counter my short genetic..
and here i am stuck at 166cm...*bawling*

take a look at this list

Dennis Joseph O'neil: 188cm
Daniel HEnney : 188cm
Ricky KIm :185cm
Kim Sung Soo :185cm
Ari Wibowo :185cm
Gong Yoo: 184cm
Akshay KUmar : 183cm
kwon Song Woo : 182cm
Hans Isaac: 182cm

ok...and now you tell me, is there any in the hunks list is below 180cm...no,right?and all these are asians!!!

so there it goes my dream to be a hunk if I only stand at friggin 166cm??!!!

when i realized this problem, it was already too late....I reached 19 already
then I started taking yogurt and milk on regular basis....at first, I got stomachache coz it was so long i hadnt had milk....

Then I did all the heightening exercises recommended in internet
I took supplements

but to no avail.............................................

and now, im always having trouble finding clothes that fit me well..and even it fits me well, it wouldnt look nice coz if ure tall and big, u have more fabric to show...but for me, paying the same price for the same shirt with less fabric(smaller size) and dnt look good in it...can you understand how am I feeling...??

*lying on the floor,looking at the ceiling, agony in heart, tears shedding.....and silence~*

hate it when "NO money" gets in the way

ni nak rasa cari kerja ni...sempat ker??

what job that need not you to stay long??

damn...I hate my life....everything went askew lately....even lamenting my sorrow here isn't gonna help anymore ...I feel like doing nothing....(sobbing)

I know not everything would favor to your life but ive had so many unfavored things already....ARGH!!!!!

menyampah

Why???Why on earth would a FRIEND pick a fight with me??xde kerja lain ker...

if u're reading this, If those were meant for jokes, I DON'T LIKE 'EM!!!

it's been several incidences, but there are 2 major ones....
there's been alterations to the conversation coz I dont really remember the exact words...but the point is still there

First
me: My cousin got married...I started to feel to get married too...I wonder if there is any beautiful girl would accept me the way I am....

He: You wanna get married??

me: ye..why not?but I hope she looks nice...its for the kids' genes...

he: tak payah la nak berangan....nak ada org kawin ngan kau pun mujur...nak memilih-milih plak...Ko ingat kau tu bagus sangat...berangan jer lebih

me: I just said I want someone nice...everybody chooses...and I'm sure, so do you..
x payah la kau nak berlagak mulia konon2 kau tu x memilih, hanya terima yg ada.....take your infallible divine concept with you to your own fairy land!!!!!cakap ngan kau buat sakit hati jer...

I think he's the one acting so pure that he dont look upon physical but merely heart...(if it's true, go have sex with my ex-maid tht her hair fell rotten coz she never bother untangle it for years...I dare you!!)

Second incidence.....

Just when i was happy finishing the trilogy of Shrek....suddenly out of nowhere, a chat box appeared on my screen saying "Aku bosan tgk muka kau"

me: apa masalah kau?

he: takde =)

he is impudent,pugnacious, blatantly picking a fight, .....and in the end gave me a supposedly cute emoticon and pretend it was okay....I DONT THINK SO!!!

I just don't get it...Don't you have manners??...Don;t you think you should know the person well enough before u make a stupid, offensive not-much-of-a-joke like this..KNOW YOUR AUDIENCE!!!..

Found my lost wallet...yay!!

someone gave me a call in the middle of a movie...and he said he's got my wallet...and i didnt wait much but to go retrieve it as soon as possible..
and it's a long story how i got it back n how the guy practically 'extorted' me to give him 'rewards' and stuff ...I'm lazy to story-story ni.

but for all it's worth, ive got my wallet back and I'm happy...

I lost my wallet

It was like other normal night, i dnt have any premonition or bad feeling or what...in fact, i was quite happy at tht time...I went photocopying notes,fill up my motor tank and went to my friend's house....
when i reached there, i started taking things out from my pockets

at first, i was SO HAPPY when i found crumpled up 1000rp(40cent) notes in my pocket ...I told my friends how happy i am everytime tht happens when u found money out of nowhere...even tho, its YOUR money tht u put and forgot bout it.

but as i was groping further, there is no sign of my wallet...i was a lil bit panicked...i looked for it everywhere in the vicinity, at the motorcycle and i went back thru the route tht i came just now looking for it...but to no avail..

luckily, there is not much money in the wallet..only rp15000(rm6-7) as far as i remembered..
HOWEVER, there is several things tht made me very sad
first, is the wallet itself..it was a gift from my father and coincidentally, it was the same with my ex-special one..and its quite expensive too
second, the ATM card, tht i already have it blocked...n thinking about all the
trouble i have to go thru to get a new one
third, my motorcycle ownership card was also in the wallet...i dnt know how much i have to pay for the replacement...~sigh~

but whatever inside it, i still love the wallet the most...because...its been with me for almost four years..and i took a good care of it and it always looked new...at least to me...

to anyone who found it( black hardy amies wallet), please contact me at this site...your kindness will be rewarded....................................................by GOD!!

nak balik..waaa~..nak mak...

all of a sudden, out of nowhere, ive got this strike of feeling-homesick???-

why??out of all my siblings, i ve always been the tough one...when i went to boarding school, i never cried while all my other siblings did.

during our early years of shifting to terengganu, they always left me n my sis with my grandma when they wanted to go back to perak...I cried a lot tht time..but tht built the present me-always tough being far apart from my family

but i guess i am still a human being...that has feelings, that needs affection, that needs love esp of a mother...
with a pile of assignments(LI) every week(weekdays), and doesnt have the channel to whine it all out..i am doomed...and the workload of lab....
now, any bits and pieces of attention or affection anybody gives me would make me happier and cry probably..

and after being here for about 3 months since the holiday, i just realised tht i have none of my family pics in possesion...how sad~...but i can take it from friendster later, i guess

alamak, class is in 10 minutes...gotta chiow guys

waaa~~...nak balik...

Best Buy!!

I was trying to sleep away the disapointment of losing and be the first runners up for the volleyball match this morning. but it didnt work out well..

So. I think i needed more than a good sleep...what about pigging out??so i called dayah and aini since they were the only two that were available under short notice plus most of my gang went to BAndung town. Thanks to dayah and aini for accompanying me.

So we had dinner at Bakso LApangan Tembak which i had a small problem with the waiter...I ordered Bakso bihun...when my order arrived, it somehow was lack of something ....then i realised it didnt have the "tetelan"(not sure the bout the word.Indo's word quite confusing)..then i called and asked the waitress.


waitress: ya, ada apa mas? (with a smile)

me: kok baksonya kosong aja..ga ada itu ya??isiannya?? (indignant)

waitress: itu ma lagi kosong..udah habis..(smiling still)

me: terus??? mengapa ga dikasitahu awal2?(high tone...angry face)

waitress: oo..ga dikasitaw ya..kiranya udah tahu(smile dissapear..change of facial expression)

me: ya udah..lain kali kasitahu dulu (preaching like an old man)

waitress:...ok (with fake smile yet still slammed the glass of ice tea on the table)

what a rude waitress!!!lempang kang..if i report this to the manager, i could have her fired!!kan??

then after having our dinner, we went for karaoke...i chose my favorite song ever "madah berhelah"...my voice never get as high as ziana zain but still persistently wanna sing that song..
actually Dayah who rushed me to pick a song n that song was the first one tht pop out from my mind...my voice got all shrieky..but who gives a rat ass bout it..huhuh

then we went roaming aroung the mall...n I saw this BIg sale promotion...so i went there eagerly n started trying on the clothes..unconsciously, ive already bought three t-shirts..*sigh*..i never have the self restraint...then we continued walking till i had this wallet-wrecking idea to buy shoes...then after a short haggle, I bought a pair of converse-like shoes...neva had tht kind of shoes...simply try something new..

then another new idea came across my mind..
"since i already have a pair of shoes and t-shirts, why dont i buy pants/jeans??"

mmm...but thinking about all the plans awaiting me ahead that gonna use a lot of cash of course, so I stopped my self from indulging to this so called shopping spree..i'd better save my money for a better plan than squandering it around for unnecessary things...but it did make me happy..huhu

ive no camera.. if not, i'd already have posted the pics of products of my splurge.*huge grin*
=)

I cannot wait for..

yeay!!...exam is over..for now at least...im not really sure about them...i answered them quite ok but answering is just one part of it, answering correctly is another matter..huhu...like Sara always said " farhan kan slalu overconfident"wahaha...

lets bygone be bygone...haha..now I cant wait for my friend to come from msia ..he said he's gonna stay here for approx 3 weeks...yeay...finally got a guy friend that i can do activities with...no offence to my girlfriends...you are all fun to be with but how can i shop with girls?? u'll be in lady's area n i??, alone in the guys area...esp when u're shopping for lingerie..wahaha..it's not like u're gonna let me see u put them on n judge...=)

Ive already done my monthly budget since i think i need to limit my expense for BAli trip...
cant wait for that too...
rent, internet, electric bills, books and photocopy, debts, laundry, regular shopping, groceries, EAT!!

can't wait for final test to over
cant wait for year break
cant wait for starting third year
cant wait to have a beloved someone
cant wait to love and be loved..wahahahaha

Lemme sleep~zzz

here i am, waking up so early at friggin' 5.45am on sunday morning??!!!
I slept at 1++ sth last nite due to incessant ranting on this Neanderthal i posted in previous post to my beloved friends....
n this morning, while i was sleeping so peacefully like the baby of an angel (ahaks), someone knocked on my door. I was wondering what kind of urgency that disturb my precious quality sleep....n there they were, two of them, asking for 'torchlight'????...they really get under my skin..im not really a morning person!!leave me alone!!

but with a fake smirk, n sleepy cute face(wahahaha), i went to look for my torchlight n gave it to them, so they can buzz off....n now i CANT get back to sleep!!!*sigh*

so now im getting ready to go to PAUN(pasar unpad to eat lavishly since yesterday, I forgot my lunch and only had biscuits for dinner..(lalalala)

furious and perplexed!!!!

my conversation with a neanderthal!!
so it started..
me: its been a while...huhu...are u back or still at .....mmm...US??isnt it??
mat motor: I'm still here sweet boy. (Boston). If you want to see photos I've taken ,go to http://tukangpaip.com quite nice sceneries. 26 Apr 2008, 21:08
me: tukang taip la, mat motor la...macam2 la dia niy...wahahahahaalright, ill check out them soon..so how ya doing??? 26 Apr 2008, 21:12
me: same photos with the ones u put up here...=) 26 Apr 2008, 21:57
Matmotor321: Yah.. 26 Apr 2008, 22:14
Matmotor321: good.

cut the idiotic jokes.
me: what idiotic jokes??
Matmotor321: Dude. You're cute and all.

I'll give you credit for that.

But I don't see the value in talking further with you based on your IQ level.
me: y out of the blue??

u didnt even tell me my alleged 'idiotic jokes'

n yup maybe i didnt come up with more serious, solemn, intelectual and cerebal topics to talk about...so why didnt YOU come up with something...

if u dnt wanna talk witn me any further...its fine..just say u're not interested...dont giv LAME excuses to end this..

so immature...

......end of conversation....
people...please and please give me some perspectives about this which in the beginning was a casual conversation but in the end, took a twist to a bitchy repartee...wait...these arent repartees..more of a brusque to me...

why on earth some people out of the blue being so insolent...audaciously rude to me

who is he to question my IQ level...do i need to list my academic achievements so far...and if we are in proffesional's field, do we need to ramble on it every day??
is a conversation about current politic issues or global economy is sufficiently interesting to you...
or we need to go more academia??
what about mandibular prognathism??prevalence of cleft palate or lips..or plegia???do these topics live up to your IQ standard??!!

please...you yourself arent that IQ-ly interesting...u talked bout...wait..you BRAGGED about u went to US, n lived there for few years before, so going there is such a boring thing....u posted yr pics with some expensive-looking sports car....Are all of these supposed to sound so intelectual to me???F%^K YOU!!

I'm purely making friends here...if u think we arent in the same wavelength, kindly say it out clear... have the balls....but to make a very CORNY excuse to end this friendship...seriously...this is more childish than the games i played this afternoon

n i think it works best for both of us that our friendship is now officially effectively ruined!!!bye~.

p/s: no grief for you tough

I am content

Have you ever done something that you are really satisfied with...??or u r not sure u're satisfied or not or content with what u've done...and u need people's approval to know it??
well, i Have for several times but for this time I wasnt really sure bout it... i was supposed to perform for Malam Seri Budaya which is somekind of an annual grand dinner..

this year's theme was 'eastern masquerade'...and i was involved in opening performance..I wasnt really sure whether it was good or what but positive responses that i got throughout the nite speaking for itself..hehehe(bragging eh?huhu...)

the opening performance...(phantom of the opera)

I was also involved in joget melayu...somehow the video was corrupted due to virus...substantial gratitude to certain someone..=(

will upload photos soon...

ugly but real or nice but fake???

which one do you prefer?? this thought hit my mind off a scenario that happened in the class today...when this who-shall-not-be-named passed a disdainful mockery of my neck...dnt ask me what it is...
I find myself ordinary, not so good looking but not ugly either..I have my good time n my bad time..sometimes i appear good, well-groomed, garbed in iron,wrinkle-free shirt and no so shabby but there is times where appearance dont really matter to me..but one thing for sure, i am always genuine me..

I dnt see the purpose of showing off nip-and-tuck face and body and undermining other people who are less fortunate in look department than they are. as i see it, surgery intervention for better appearance is just to help your self-esttem and confidence level, it helps some people to blend in this judgmental society...but to degrade yourself by undermining the less fortunate people, being so ostentatious of what u , i'd say 'repaired'....that is so demeaning...

why so boastful about your unauthentic wrinkle-less face, fake pumped up breasts, and faux injected immaculate skin....yea...u look good, then what??its not that ure born like that but u're fabricated..in other words, the ugliest duckling could be changed into a beatiful swan if it have money to go for the surgery...for that matter of course...

so, bear in mind that u should just be grateful that people nowadays don't really mind about plastic surgery..there is no need to go around n tell people about what uve done..it makes u look un-original


genuine me..hehe..not bad eh...wahahahahahah

My bad!!!

it was like other normal days..my mom asked me to send my lil sis to her boarding school at Dungun..On the way there nothing happened..after done sending her..i didnt feel like going bc home yet so i called my friend who lived nearby to ask him out..We met at petronas station n planned to go to KFC seperately..i used my car n he used his bike..on my way to kfc,it was raining quite heavily... i was driving as usual till at a traffic light junction, i realized tht i was at the wrong lane..so i tried to turn left where a line of cars just started to move as the light turned green...then i started to notice tht it was a mistake since the car in front was very near..to my panic, i veered to right attempting to avoid the line of cars n pressed brake..but it wasn't my day, due to the rain n the slippery road,my car skidded n banged the car right in front of me..guess what!!it didn't stop there..the car tht i collided move forward n banged the car in front of it..the second car tht got banged jz went straight off,being oblivious to the crash..i hoped the first car would do the same(hahaha)...Then i went out n talked to the driver of a modified sporty kancil ..to my surprise,it was an old lady..then we moved our car to the road side n started to talk about police report,compensations n stuff!!after a long talk n long waiting,we decided to make a police report,so that every damages incurred by me could be covered by insurance..Thank god none got injured..so the case was closed after i was fined...but my car was wrecked like hell..so needed to be towed by a kren to a workshop nearby..later at night my parents came to pick me up..what a day!!
since then, i still havent driven till today...i guess the aftermath is still there..this is my first experience of an accident..i guess it's a part n parcel of driving life..my parents themselves have been involved in quite a number of accidents.. so sooner or later it'd happen..but the important thing is tht i learned something from the incident..

????exam!!!!

i was dreaming of gettin' 4 for this sem but when the exam time came, i jz hoped tht i passed all the tests..all of em r frigging hard for cryin' out loud
these are several awards given to several subjects n the reasons
microbiology- peculiar test award (for the lab test , we r given about 30sec for each station to read the info bout thingstht we've never heard bout n later answer the questions) hello..we all dnt hav photographic memory!!!!
parasitology- happy moment termination award( when pple relishing the moment they tikced the last answer, the lecturer ruined the happy moment by announcing UTS result--fr sure the marks suck
anatomy-despair award( there are abt 60 qustion but only few of the questions r understandable--tht doesnt mean we could answer the few questions..even medic students dnt know the answers..we feel hopeless plus when UTS result tht only one lucky student didnt flunk the test

biochem n histology didnt win any awrds..hopt they try harder nest year by making unusual, weird things during exam
these r the subjects for the 1st week...im looking forward to seeing wht the following tests will bring..
i cnt wait to take remedials at the same time cnt wait to fonosh this tormenting exam weeks..=(

what i've been up to lately

lately i jz don't know what to put in my blog..totally blank..then, i'vve got some ideas but i dnt have camera/photos,, so i thought plain writing isnt gonna attract any readers in spite of the fact the this page has no readers at all....however i think i shud give myself some credit n jz put whatever i want to regardless what people think of it..
so recently...i've shifted to a new house(b4 was kosan)..i live with raja n faizal...it's a house with three rooms n 2 bathrooms...n it has a magnificient kitchen..it's an open air kitchen with a small pond there...but when it rains, it's quite troublesome..
i also jz bought a new bike... Honda Supra Fit, blue silver...there is sth wrong with the plat no..it's so flimsy n not tightly fixed...so whenever i ride on uneven road, it would eminate a rattling noise...pple would know tht im coming bcoz of the sound...after almost a month i bought the bike i never watched it till it looked like an old one but after some critism tht i received fom my friends(it's gonna b rusty, pple would think less of u n blaaaa), FINALLY i washed it...it was fun though!!
i also got a dye job...the color is majibrown...i was always scared the the color was gonna come off, so i cut down my hairwashing time to 2/3 times a week n used color lock shampoo...but nw it's ok since the color doesnt fade at all...thank god!kinda amazing ,,,its like every single hair is coated with an impervious layer...some pple say i look like mix people...so whenever pple ask i said tht i got some meditteranean blood...there was one gullable girl tht totally bought it...haha...

so-called university

I dnt know whether university lifestyle is like this but what i know is i dont like it..Im lost..dnt know what to study..dnt knw what to do...blur and confuse all the time..pple mind their own business....the lecturers cant speak english properly..im not saying that im good but at least my english is understandable...what do u think of 1 hour lecture with countable words stuttered by the lecturer...me who was so zestful at first....turn to be sleeepy nak mapus..what im worried here is what i heard from seniors who told me that in exam...if they couldnt understand yr answer, they could simply put "X" on it...*sigh* so u havte use simple english but how simple could it be if they could hardly recall what is "kucing" called in english...never mind..this is the first sem...so i wanna c how thing's going first then we judge them!!!!hehe